The One Not to be

The one not to be

I watch the crush of hands
as I hear my own lips
saying I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat
hold on hold on and hold tighter
then this won’t be true
I’ll blink and someone will say you’re dreaming
and I won’t be in my crisp uniform
with a plastic pinny and eyes full of empathy
for something I’ve never experienced
I won’t lean over her belly
pressing a doppler to my ear
with my eyes turning filmy with fear
for the woman whose day I should be making
whose heart I shouldn’t be breaking

but I’ll do it anyway my tears uncontained
and I’ll swallow the pebble in my throat
instead of retching
then I’ll leave them alone
to try to make their love enough
to carry them through

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Soft x three

It’s Tina’s turn to choose the theme for this weeks :Lens-Artists Photo Challenge, and her topic is Soft. She’s posted some very cute and soft farm animals from New York State, Scotland and Patagonia, my favourite is the highland cow!

She doesn’t mind how we interpret the theme, so I have three pics for you.

Soft snow on a soft cobweb.

One of my G-babies on a soft slide, she’s just had her fifth birthday!

And soft light in a soft, cloudy sky.